For the last few days The Point of Power has NOT Been Mine. I have been feeling inadequate in many ways and one of these ways has manifested itself in my fear of being seen ’being out there in the world’. It took a very long time before I had the confidence to start writing a blog.
Just by chance today I came across a book where I had collected speeches and sayings from other people and came across Nelson Mandela’s inaugural speech from 1994 which reads:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure, it is our light, not our darkness which most frightens us.”
There are many more lines including one which talks about letting our light shine. My socialisation taught the opposite of Nelson Mandela’s speech because a frequently used phrase was ‘that’s not for the likes of you’.
I was socialised into believing that my light wasn’t as strong or valuable as other peoples. A frequently used phrase in my upbringing was ‘That’s not for the likes of you’. My Mother, was a school teacher and in her day women had to give up work when they got married and I believe she just wished to protect me from disappointment.
Reading this speech today has aroused a mixture of emotions in me and reminded me of the phrase ‘Whether you think you can or you think you can’t — you’re right.’
And THE POINT OF POWER HAS ONCE AGAIN BECOME MINE in the moment simply because this speech has shed a light on my fear and I know that in the final analysis the choice of whether ‘I DO’ or ‘Do NOT’ is mine and ‘thinking makes it so’.