25 May 2022 — HOLDING OURSELVES BACK!
Before I proceed with this Blog I would like to belatedly credit yesterday’s blog as being a saying by Sri Satya Sai Baba.
If ALL is ENERGY as Einstein’s equation E=MC squared by the speed of light, tells us, then the energy pervading me today is one of not feeling SELF DESERVING emotionally and HAVING NO ENERGY physically.
So why would I choose to put myself in this uncomfortable space and give up carrying out those things I need to do in order to go forward on my life’s path? My experience of being in this state of mind has led me to conclude that I am indeed, blocking my inner self, my SOUL KNOWING. and allowing the little ego self to reign supreme.
I felt very justified when I shouted at cyclists not using the cycling path and invading the pedestrian part of the pavement — it made me feel good and very justified!
And that feeling of justification covered over my feelings of not wanting to go forward and of not feeling self deserving!
OF COURSE WHAT I AM HOLDING MYSELF BACK FROM IS GOING FORWARD AND FULFILLING WHAT I SEE AS THE NEXT STEP ON THE PATH TO ACHIEVING MY POTENTIAL.
“ALL THINGS IN CREATION ARE SUBJECT TO THE LAW OF CHANGE AND MAN TOO IS SUBJECT TO THIS LAW” Sri Sathya Sai Baba
The main problem, of course, is CHANGE. And once again I reflect on WHY change is such a big thing when we all know that everything changes all the time. In order for our lives to be good and steady we do need to accept change gracefully, as we go shouting and screaming into the new, reflecting upon all the changes which have taken place in our lives so far, and which are now our accepted reality. EVEN THE ONES WE DEEPLY RESENTED AT THE TIME.
I do, however, like to refer to the process to which I have been referring as ‘TREADING WATER’ rather than holding myself back!
PONDER POINTS: on reading this I felt …my thoughts on reading the blog were….in the past, it felt like I was holding myself back when …. the changes which I feared and resented at the time which on reflection, I feel are the best things ever to happen to me are ….changes which I still regret are ….changes which I need to accept in order to finally go forward into the new are ….
