26 September 2020 — FEELING ON EDGE

INNER PEACE seems to have gone out of the window today. There are several things I wished to do before keeping an appointment with the opticians and I found myself ‘rushing here and rushing there’ and feeling very anxious.

DEEP BREATHS, CALMING DOWN by telling myself things would go much more smoothly if I just relaxed and trusted, AND that it was hardly a matter of life and death if I didn’t manage to get everything that I wished to, done became the order of the day.

Of course, I could have avoided all problems by deciding to give up the desire to get the tasks done before the appointment but having made the decision to do so I wouldn’t let go of it.

I obviously made a CHOICE to get myself into a state BUT it was a choice of which I was unaware. I can only hope that perhaps I have learnt from this occasion to make more sensible choices in the future such as to GIVE MYSELF TIME TO DO GET THINGS DONE and don’t make the decision to get things done ‘regardless’ of the fact that I really don’t have the time!

Sometimes, however, I feel that the wise side is taken over by the ego side which seems to love STRUGGLE!!