30 August 2020 — GONE TOO SOON

Today on my walk I have passed plaques erected in memory of young people who are no longer with us and I have also come across a quote which reads ‘I sat with my anger long enough, until she told me her real name was grief’.

JOY and SORROW, like day and night are opposite sides of the same coin. Sometimes when we are grieving we feel guilty if we find ourselves happy and enjoying the moment. We are as quick to judge ourselves as we are to judge other people.

The only certain thing we know when a baby is born that some day it will die. And yet in England death is a subject to be avoided and ignored.

I believe us all to be SOULS in a body and we die when our souls judge it time for us to leave our bodies — when indeed our ego selves have absorbed the lessons we were born to learn. It is coming up to two years since I experienced the death of my son and at times I feel I will never get over it but mostly I try to be grateful for having known him, for all the memories and for the things he taught me.

The saying ‘I sat with my anger long enough,until she told me her real name was grief’ throws light, I feel, on yesterdays incident when I became angry at children making it difficult for me to move because of where they had left their scooters. In the long ago past that could most easily have been my children and myself not noticing how we were affecting other people.

The SECRET to a happy life, I believe is accepting one’s feelings in each moment and accepting that whatever happens was meant to be on a deeper level than the rational ie the soul level.