7 May 2020 — COURAGE — NOT THE ABSENCE OF FEAR OR DESPAIR BUT THE STRENGTH TO CONQUER THEM.

And that is what I seem to be lacking today — the strength to conquer the fear and despair which is presently invading my mind seemingly for no reason.

The solution is to understand WHY, INDEED, I AM CHOOSING TO DO FEAR AND DESPAIR. What is it that I am avoiding facing through allowing myself to be swamped in FEAR and DESPAIR? AND, the answer is, of course, i am avoiding taking on board new understanding: avoiding taking the next step forward into the new through wishing to feel SAFE in the OLD WAY of being and thinking.

THE CHOICE IS MINE ‘Whether it is better to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or by opposing END THEM’. (Shakespeare — Hamlet) or in my case whether it is better to endure the discomfort of avoiding what life is presenting by burying my head in the sand OR TO ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE OF A NEW OPPORTUNITY?