8 October 2018 —Another One of Those Days!

Today is turning out to be another one of those days where everything is seeming a little too much and just beyond me and like a child hanging its head, not wanting to do what is required of it, I am telling myself I cant do it, rather than angrily stamping a foot and saying ‘I won’t.’

Neither am I blaming others or my circumstances as I am only too well aware that FEAR is still the problem — fear of change, of the new, of growing and going forward. Once again it is the mind set — the ego self no less — which has created the image of myself as a person — who I am, of what I am capable — a safe little mind set which prefers to be rooted in the same ground as it always has been. AND the ego self which is denying the right brain awareness of being a soul (formless energy) incarnated into the material form of the body. The first step out of this seeming impasse is, of course, as ever, is to accept that I am ‘doing this to myself’ and to make a different choice and the second, to feel the fear and do it anyway.

And as another Sri Sathya Sai Baba card reads; ‘Those who seek the bliss of the Supreme should not always run after the joys of sense objects’ and what I find myself continually doing is stuffing food into my mouth to take me away from my feelings of ‘it all being too much’.