9 October 2020 — ENERGY — Love or Indifference?

Today I accompanied a friend on a hospital appointment and generally found the atmosphere there to be light hearted and the other patients convivial and affable. The taxi drivers were also very congenial. The visit felt good despite the fact that the reason for it was a little concerning.

So, instead of feeling heavy hearted or depressed we were in very good spirits. However, one meeting with a friend whom I’ve known since childhood, tended to lower my spirits drastically. This was not because the friend was depressed but because her conversation was mainly about things which I found it hard to be interested in. Her ENERGY was extremely strong and left me feeling debilitated.

The problem I do own as mine. Whilst I am feeling that she was not concerned about me I realise that I am, indeed, thinking only about myself and not loving myself or my friend enough to accept her as she is.